OOTD🌈 Stumbled across a blue wall so naturally had to take an outfit post against it didnt I 🕺🏻gonna have a boiling hot bath and drink hot chocolate for the rest of the evening like the 60 year old woman i am💆🏼♀️😆
Just finished cleaning toilets
I guess i should feel less
Disappointed in where I’m at?
I guess it’s steps backwards
It doesn’t feel it
It feels ok.... more than ok
Cos it’s cleaning toilets in a town I always dreamed of
Never thought I’d get here
It feels like I’m making things work
I’m up with the larks
I’m active and getting my chi flowing
I’m at it ..... being proactive
I get to sit with my coffee and watch the bobbing boats in the harbour
And people watch and pinch myself
Life just feels filled with things to be grateful for
I’m even sticking to a low carb diet .... I feel I can do anything now I’ve got here
How can I be beaten by my blubber when I’ve battled all the shit in my life and I’m winning
I’m off to see someone about another job now at a cafe in a lovely pretty seaside spot
Life is full of possibilities ...... it’s certainly not perfect
I’m struggling to find any time to get creative .I’m skint constantly and have anxiety about the future
I’m in bed for 9 most nights
I only have two IKEA bags full of clothes and a pair of charity shop plimsolls and no “ luxury stuff “ like fancy shampoos and moisturisers ...... in fact I’m living my old lady blue tub of Nivea..... who knew?
I’ve no house of my own but I’ve got family .... love and I’m not missing a thing of my grandchildren’s lives
I’m living in my daughters home and I’m nearly 50 single fat and practically bankrupt for the second time
I’ve learnt stuff like that doesn’t matter that much
Stuff doesn’t matter
Having lots of things doesn’t matter
Being brave matters..... not giving up matters...... love matters ......your attitude really matters and how you choose to see things matters more than anything
Choose to be grateful and positive
I’m choosing to be grateful for just being here and taking a chance and trying to improve stuff for my daughter and the kids. I’m choosing to be happy I’m not my mother ..... stuck ..... negative and lacking imagination for what life can be.
Like the bobbing boats I’m watching...... safe in my harbour of family love even if the big waves feel scary and toss me about sometimes.